Whatever You're Doing

As I got up this morning I decided to log into my facebook with the intention of posting a new picture of Hannah.  That hasn't happened yet.  Instead I ran across a song someone posted and it really moved me into a time of prayer and reflection.  God is working in my life in ways that are undeniable.  It is causing me to reevaluate so many of my long held beliefs about what it means to be in relationship with Him.  I'm finding that not only have I bought into lies about myself through the years, but I've also bought into lies about who God is.

This time through my "Shelter" group I am seeing God's hand week by week.  Every unit we are in, I find myself being faced with a real life situation that makes what we are working on even more applicable.  Not only in "Shelter", but also in our Sunday School lesson, the sermon, a work situation, lunch with a friend, session with my therapist, or just life.  It feels like God is saying, "see Marcey, I'm right here, I'm walking this path right with you, I have always been here, helping you, strengthening you, carrying you, I'm right here."  Wow!

One of the biggest choices I've made while being in my "Shelter" group is to stop believing lies.  LIES!  My mind has been so full of them.  It's a process replacing lies with truth, but once you learn the truth, you can't unlearn it.  Truth is powerful.  The Bible says it sets you free, and I can testify to that.  It wasn't until I began choosing truth over lies that I was able to start seeing the presence of God in my life.  I couldn't see God through the lies.  Truth isn't always pleasant, but the freedom you get out of it is always worth the pain.  I'm so thankful for truth.

So, as I sit here this morning thinking and reflecting, for the first time in my life I realize that I can undeniably see that God is present with me, that he's always been with me, and as I choose to embrace truth and let go of the lies, I am able to see that I'm not too damaged for him to walk right with me on this journey of healing.  I find myself saying, "o.k. God, you with me, then lets go!"  I have fought surrender for so long, but now I want to surrender.  I want to just let God do His work in me.

Back to the song.  The lyrics were my conversation with God this morning.  Not verbatim, but pretty much my sentiments.  Especially the part in bold.  I want to share.  Enjoy. 


Whatever You're Doing - Sanctus Real

It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time to make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
And all I can do is surrender

(Chorus)
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something Heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Reevaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will
Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is You want from me
I give everything I surrender...
To...

(Chorus)
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something Heavenly
Something Heavenly*

Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to release all my held back tears

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This is something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly
Something Heavenly